Orlando and Solidarity 

Like many in the world, I am shocked and saddened by the massacre in Orlando yesterday. The world should not stand by, watching idly as an NRA controlled Congress debates and then shelves the argument until the next mass shooting. The citizens of the United States should no longer tolerate any hate speech, especially when directed to people of color or to members of the LGBTQ+ community. ANY hate speech, even one indicates indifference toward either of these communities, needs to immediately be stopped and immediately corrected.

A comment of indifference may sound like this: “I don’t care what those people do, as long as I don’t see it.” This is one of the worst things someone can say or let pass. Speech like this tells every bigot that they are not the freaks, the people they hate are the freaks. Microaggressions, something as small as “remaining neutral” sends a message.

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In the cause for LGBTQ rights, you are either with us or against us. This issue is black and white, even if our flag isn’t
Is there a neutral for LGBTQ people, when the media represents only the white straights? With this, not talking about sexuality may confuse those who cannot understand what they are feeling. Bisexual people, like me, might not understand they are attracted to the same gender because people have said bisexual people are just gay men or women who are afraid to come out completely. I, myself, did not even consider that I might be bisexual until I learned about the Kinsey scale in AP Psychology. I just thought everyone liked to look at boobs and my desire to be with girls was just a desire to be close friends.

I am choosing now to come out publicly as bisexual is in solidarity with the victims of Orlando and because I want anyone who reads this to recognize it is not something to be ashamed of. I do realize there are many stereotypes floating through your head now. Cutting my hair short did not make me this way, and I am not more likely to cheat on my partner. I am not more promiscuous than a straight person. Honestly, the reason I waited so long to come out was because I’d never been in a real relationship with a girl before; but I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone!

To anyone who is contemplating if they are a part of the LGBTQ community: the fact you are unsure if you are straight or cis is likely an indicator. Coming out to yourself is the hardest part. Once you do that, that is all that matters; there is no reason to prove your sexuality to anyone else but yourself.

If you ask me what I identify with, I will likely say I am queer. Always have been, recently realized. I stand with the victims in Orlando and will do everything in my power to work for better gun control and LGBTQ rights so tragedies like this do not happen.

please remember this is an opinion and this does not represent the sentament of the entire LGBTQ+ community

Put on Your Tin Hats, Aliens Are Here

The following is an excerpt from a paper I turned in to my English 105 professor. He seemed pleased, I think.

You pass an alien every day, as casual as you please, oblivious to their disguise. It is true, reader; aliens are among us. They study us, watch us, and kill us. The government can only do so much to appease the mob of aliens, can only do so much to cover up their existence, and can only incarcerate the few that cannot be allowed to roam any longer. Area 51 is clearly a jail for such a creature, despite governmental claims of “aircraft test fields” and “innocent nuclear tests,” and we can see the truth behind the lies. Aliens reside on the earth, the government is covering up their existence, and a larger conspiracy concerning the origins of humans themselves is brewing beneath it all.

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hey lil mama let me invade your planet

Something is keeping (or attempting to keep) the wool over our eyes. No longer can I stand by and watch citizens trust a neighbor, a superior, or even the government! It must end now, starting here. I’m serving truth up fresh from this point on.

Plain and simple, extraterrestrials have been visiting our planet since the dawn of man. It has not gone unnoticed, despite what some may say. There have been cover ups upon cover ups, but still, those who know the signs can see what slips through the cracks. When a true believer takes findings public, they often become the laughing village jester for the day, month, year, or lifetime. When rational people dismiss cold hard facts, simply unable to believe, that is a sure sign of governmental influence. There are many motives for the government to cover this up. However, only a few are pertinent enough to our study to be worth mentioning.

The government has to save face. If the general public were ever to believe that the man in the oval office has been sanctioning abductions or even encouraging them, the people would lose faith in the head of state, and a mob would likely call for his head to be placed on a plate. Not only that, the aliens might be applying pressure to our dear congressmen, making them abuse the tax purse. Money out of our own pockets is being used not to protect us—quite the opposite, in fact. These aliens could possibly be demanding human test subjects and equipment that the government supplies out of fear.  There might be some attempt to exchange technology for resources, even if said resources require human skin and bones.

To keep truth seekers at bay, the government often commissions work to be done and published to disprove any evidence of aliens. Ha! As if fourteen or twenty studies held by multiple different organizations will sway us from the truth. Still, this skepticism is a strong ally to keep any space invader under wraps. The “lack of evidence,” as some may call it, is hardly grounds for dismissal. The government is the very reason there are so little “undeniable” facts, with the mysterious bases and suspicious radio frequencies, all wrapped up tightly behind barbed wire. The closed off vibes these military operations secrete only confirms that there is nothing good going on behind those scary machine guns. Brute force is not enough to deter the more dedicated logician, so a devious type of psychological warfare is deployed on she who sticks her nose where it does not belong— doubt. Surrounding our beloved truth seeker are those who deny her beliefs and wish to make her shut up.

 

LOL I just had a lot of fun with this, and it definitely helped me cultivate my voice. This is about 1 1/2 of the 6 page paper.

Numbers Count

Numbers Count

I am obsessed with numbers. Not in a smart or beneficial way, as you may expect from a good little engineer, but in a destructive and demeaning way. I am like the Hillary Clinton of social media. I follow trends that are popular and will garner attention, even if it isn’t always what I care about. When I post an Insta pic, I tend to only do it in the early morning or late evening; that is when the picture is likely to get the most traffic from my followers. I keep tweets in my draft folder for weeks-unless it is about a breaking event- and often edit them two or three times before sending them out into the world of my followers

Tweets I generally send out at any time the sun is up, and lately I’ve been trying to tweet mostly pictures with some witty caption. If I am about to fall asleep, but then think of some crazy saying, I will rip myself away from my blankets and pillows, fumble around for my phone, and type it out as quick as I can. The only time I allow myself to post something unfunny is generally when a national tragedy has happened or an upsetting policy (probably cooked up by some Republican) hits the newsstands. I censor myself, and delete evidence of when others did not respond as enthusiastically as I anticipated.

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lol I won’t tweet that bc people only like to be entertained or informed… no room for introspection in 140 character or less 

This is not okay. I am leaving some of my happiness up to the opinions of other, and dependent on a number. Leaving it up to a number is especially dangerous because there is going to come a day that I hit my peak, and that I will never reach again. I shouldn’t expect continuous growth forever, but when it comes to numbers, it is an extremely easy trap to fall in.

This is probably where old people chime in and say “This is how social media is ruining the younger generation!” Woah, there, Bob Barker, that price is not right. Who is creating and pushing all the standardized tests to public schools? The government, which, unfortunately, is still mostly run by crusty old white guys. The people obsessed with test scores are likely not the same people who know what Instagram has the most likes (mine is from when I was homecoming queen; followers like ‘life events’ like that), but the people who run universities and are hiring college kids.

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as if this geezer has a twitter (Image by Jennifer Weber LOL)

My ACT score does not define me and I really hope my GPA doesn’t define me-I definitely wasn’t a better person in high school than I am in college-but it certainly feels like it living in the middle of a college campus with finals coming up. I try and remind myself of this as I stay up until three or four in the morning, knowing I have to wake up before 8 am, and it does little to soothe me. I’ll take a distraction over crippling anxiety, thank you very much!

Honestly, keeping my social media aesthetic can be a bit of a burden sometimes, but it is much better than constantly checking my test scores and never leaving the library to get a ‘perfect’ number that probably won’t matter once I am a job or two into my career. I will probably stay obsessed with numbers, but take a grain of salt every time I think about deleting a tweet that only my two best friends favorited. The validation I feel when I receive a retweet or a handful of favorites is sick and fickle, but it does comfort me in times of stress. There are some tweets I keep, even if they receive little attention, because everyone has some pride, but most that are unpopular I am likely to delete. At least now I am up front about it and more introspective about it.

Summary of “Berlin Games”

Focusing on those who planned the games and what strings had to be pulled in order to have the games staged in Berlin. The racism and prejudice that followed Jesse Owens, American track runner, along with Jewish German high jumper Gretel Bergmann, forced to train under the watchful eyes, but her hopes of being on the Olympic team were crushed by the Nazis. The International Olympic Committee comes under scrutiny for allowing the German government to twist them into their own puppets and have their will proceed, along with the rest of the world to allow such discrimination.

I am personally wondering if a similar action is taking place currently in Sochi, after hearing President Putin making homophobic comments. Is the Olympic and International community turning a blind eye in order to continue through with the Games? How blinded could they become, and will the US media cover the atrocities that could end up happening in homophobic sentiment? Hopefully these questions will be scoffed at in the future, but there are some dangerous politics surrounding the current affairs in Russia.